There are so many surprises in life, so many unknowns... most of them can be a little scary @ first (@ least for me) but honestly, nothing great ever comes from standing still.
We have to move forward. Embrace change & see what life has to offer. Otherwise, imagine how many things we would miss out on! For me, my most recent life lesson on that is this little man.
We talked a lot about growing our family before we decided to go down this path again so while getting pregnant wasn't a surprise, I still don't think I ever felt ready for it this time around... I really felt like I had finally found my groove with being Zack's mom, our business was really growing & no matter how excited I was, a part of me was scared of how many things were about to change again.
I spent so much time trying to think about what he would look like, what his personality would be, how Zack would respond to him & how we would all adjust to everything... & now that he's here - I couldn't picture him any other way & It's hard to imagine how things were before him.
He has the most amazing habit of just staring @ me... I'm sure Zack did the same thing but for some reason, I get this feeling with Dexter like I've known him my whole life. I know that probably sounds strange but I seriously get lost staring back @ him & thinking about that...
He also must be the most easy going babe I've ever met!
The first month of his life he spent mostly grunting when he needed something & although he has definitely found his voice now, he still saves it for when there is truly something wrong. Of course, when there is something wrong, you can probably hear him down the street - lol - but overall, he's just a happy little dude :)
And just when I think I can't love anymore, I see these 2 together & my heart explodes.
I knew Zack would be an amazing big brother but I am still surprised every day by how much he cares, loves, & wants to take care of Dexter. That's one thing I hope never changes.
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